Disappointment is thrown strongly at my direction. Blame gathers in large quantities like a pest infestation. "It's your fault" and words like "You always make mistakes" evoke anger. Anger which I want to take out on myself and take out on others. I can excel in my work of choice, I know I'm more than average. The bad gets pointed out more and little praise is given for the good. Stunned by unmoving words. I'm like a prisoner sentenced to jail, released and expected to do worse. Destruction emerges from my enraged emotions, i wish your words could offer a solution. I want to be an alchemist and turn things into gold. It's ironic how I am a creator of words but cant create better words in my critics. Conversations lead to arguments because i want to be heard. I'm sick of revolving doors, sick of being slammed by your atrocious comments. "You have no common sense" you say to me, maybe I just prefer to be in a daydream, my mind drifting away because life is too dull. Realize that what you say has an effect and that effect can drive somebody or stop them in motion.