I grew up ignored. Not neglected, never abused. Ignored. Blithely alone with people unawares of my existence besides them. They spoke about me as though I were not there, so I learned not to be. I spoke myself through days that stretched into years. "Don't draw attention. Don't speak unless spoken to. Don't be the interesting one. They aren't interested in you, anyway." Siblings stole the spotlight and I let them. 'Being ignored is like being abused, kind of. ' No, not really. Being ignored is being silent and knowing what happens even though no one else does. Being the ignored one means that you don't have pressure to achieve; you don't exist. You are no better No worse Nothing at all. You are nothing at all. And eventually, You learn to appreciate that nothing-at-all feeling. It's freeing. You don't have to worry about things like looks because you don't get seen. Scars are ignored because they exist on you. Making friends, though, is hard. "How do you share like interests when you've never been important to have any at all?" I'd ask. "Figure it out." I would tell myself. "You have before." Take on the skins of people around you. Be who they want you to be. Be replaceable in that way that makes you needed. Simpler than it sounds, really. Being nothing is so freeing So calming So boring So cold. And empty. Like the nothing-at-all you are.