When did I come crashing down?
When did I reach the bottom?

I never realised
Just how much I seem to cry,
Every night without fail.

I never realised
How bad I really was
Till I blacked from loss of blood.

I never realised
How much it hurt
Until I could no longer feel.

I never realised
That I no longer cared
If I never woke again.

Maybe I'm getting weaker,
Slowly giving up all together.
I never realised, well I guess I did
I just lied to hide the truth and pain.
Truth is I never knew the right words to say.

When did I lose my rich on reality?
When did I only long for death?