I'll turn missing you into a way to spend my life with you. Just see if I don't. It doesn't matter what you do to me, I will love you every **** day. I will make something beautiful and devote it to you. My pain for your absence will solidify with time, and become a being of its own, And it will follow me like my own shadow wherever I go For the rest of my life. And when I turn out the light, It will envelope me, surround me, swallow me, And we will be the same. I've called you the sun, I've called you light, I've called you the universe, I've called you my love, And now you have become something even more heartbreakingly present. Now you inhabit the dark as well. Now the thought of you is the air around me, In my lungs, along my skin, So absent that it is everywhere. So empty that it fills everything. And never in my life will I be able to find a place without it. Never anywhere will I stop breathing you in. And as I murmur your name into the dark every night before I fall asleep I realize that even if you don't care if I die, you will keep me alive.