I think about you
more often than I do not
I talk about you
more often than I do not
every night I cry about you
more often than I do not
emotional breakdowns
more often than I do not
I reminisce
more often than I do not
I cry for the hurt I feel
there's not an hour of the day where you do not pass my mind
I got a new phone today and the only pictures in it are ones of you and I
18 cuts for your age
12 for our anniversary day
24 for my favorite day we spent together
on good days I will only cut
6 for the months together
3 for the month of my favorite day
maybe just one for the unbearable month spent without you
there are so many more days I wished to spend with you
so many more feelings I wished to experience
too many more new favorite days to make; new memories
I yearn to hear your voice and your hugs and kisses and your body against mine
I yearn the smell of you skin and cologne and lips when they kiss my nose
I yearn the touch of your fingers as they glide across my bare skin, your hand as it holds mine, and your eyelashes giving me my daily butterfly kiss
I yearn the sight of your arms outstretched towards me, your deep brown eyes making contact with me and not dropping gaze
I yearn the taste of your tongue intertwined with mine, of your morning kisses, and the taste of the sweet words I love you falling from your mouth as if a waterfall spilling out your favorite smells