I seem to be happy in the midst of company. But by myself, I am always in sadness; thinking, hoping of, what I know is missing from my life. If what I am thinking about knows, why doesn't it come? To me, who could give so much, for as much given, To make me happy. As I am alone, in the midst of that company.
From unpublished book "The Seeds Of Life" - compiled in 1996. Another very early poem, perhaps the second one written.