we were driving home from a wedding
and mom was smashed in the back
i mean passed out
across the 3 back seats
of the truck
dad was smoking a cigarette
up front with me
and we were laughing up until we
got to the intersection where you died
and he made what felt like the most
complete stop he'd ever made
and i just lost it
because i didn't think he remembered
i didn't think anyone remembered
how much it had tacitly and endlessly hurt me

so we listened to jackson 5
the rest of the way home
and i finally just cried
out everything