Tired of trying
Sick of crying
I might be smiling
But inside I'm dying

Sadness and pain deep inside me
I locked it away and hid the key
I don't think I can ever share it
You would look at me in a different way
I swear it;

The only one who knows, is me
I fake a smile everyday
For I couldn't stand you to see me this way
I try burying my tears deep inside
But sometimes I fail
So excuse me

If I ever show you what's truly inside
I'd runaway and never come back

And yes, yes! I know! It's that bad

It's like a torture that never dies
Pain of living hurts me deep inside

Voices in my head
Telling me I'm much better off dead;
Should I have ended it from the beginning?

I feel like I'm wearing a mask
Trying to hide these emotions inside me;
Faking happiness, just to please you is nearly impossible
But, too bad, that's what I go through everyday
Trying to prevent drowning in my own tears

One day everything might get better
Who knows?
What I know is that, that day is certainly not today;

Tired of trying
Sick of crying
I might be smiling
But inside I'm dying