if someone tells me that jealousy does not exist on this earth i will tell them to look deep inside my heart and see the jealousy that courses through my veins
i yearn for someone to talk to even if it's just a random person anonymously on a random site and i yearn for a cutesy little skype conversation with a complete stranger and i yearn for people to ask me to go places instead of me asking them
and i yearn for them to remember me, and i yearn for them to remember my name and that it's leeza, not lyza and that i have feelings, too and i hate this back brace
and that i just want to laugh with them and i don't want them to laugh at me and i just worry so much
and i am jealous because they are concerned with grades and boys, grades and girls and i just try to fit in because i am jealous.
welp this is personal basically i have really bad scoliosis and my surgery date is confirmed wow am i fine or panicked? at the moment i'm fine, but i know that every single day that goes by is just one day closer to my meltdown.