I look in the mirror What do I see? Wrinkly woman Staring strait back at me Her eyes have bags She hasent slept in weeks Her hair all white White as snow Her eyes wide like a child's first hope She looks at me Puts her and on the mirror "Dadda?" She asks " no I'm not your father" "Dadda?" " I don't know where he is.." "Dadda?!" She starts to freak out " I'm not your father!" "Dadda!!" "I DONT KNOW WHERE HE IS! I DONT KNOW WHERE HE WENT! HE LEFT US OK! HE LEFT us.." She turns her head and looks at me "Why?" She asks I tell her" I don't know!" She points to the watch on her wrist "He only gives you those so you can count down the minuts to see him! It's not worth it! Every year it's longer and longer, and soon he will walk right out of your life!" "Dadda is suppost to come! I want to play!" I look at her, reach out and touch her hair "The only game our father plays is hide and go seek except we give up looking and waiting for him" "But I've been waiting since I was three!" " and now your eighty! Don't you see? Go get sleep or find some friends! You will find other love, it's just as good." "Don't lie to me!" She demands in a deep voice. Her eyes full of hate! "No don't do that! You don't deserve all that hate !" " nothing is as good as a fathers love! Not a date, a true boyfriend NOTHING!" "How do you know ? We have never had a fathers love!" " but you see it around you. Then you give up and try boy love." "Don't say that!" "You know it's true the only reason you date boys is to find some love for you! You seek attention and kisses and hugs! So you feel someone truly cares and loves! Your pathetic trying to wait! Pretending to love him every holiday ! " "SHUT UP SHUT UP!!" I say and punch the mirror "Why don't you make me! You pathetic slime You can't enjoy Christmas *** he's gone mine !" I stood up and stare her in the eyes. "No one owns me or tells me what to do!" "Oh I'm so scared!" "Yes yes you are ! Your scared of never being enough! Your scared that if your not pretty! You'll die and he won't give a ****! Your scared that you will loose him! Your scared no one will care! Well guess what buddyriend and family that care !" "Why don't you sleep it off? And wait for him to care?" "IM DONE SLEEPING AND WAITING FOR HIM !" I reach in and grab her by the throught. "AND IM DONE LISTENING TO YOU!" I turn her neck till the mirror shatters The glass breaks my hand blead I sit and cry like nothing mattered I look at one of the pieces on the ground in front of me. It's a little girl only about age 3. "Thank you" she says and curtsys and disinagrates away. I sit and cry. Tears of joy Nothing is more blissful then freedom Even more then a boy.