... & my heart cringes at the thought of you
I can feel it aching as it attempts to retrieve stories from the past. The times when you were the one I constantly and with no exception turned to.
I can feel it sore and stinging as I compose another word, when I'm just endeavoring to comprehend the present, and make it through.

... & I feel a  lump down my throat when the vision of you with someone else strikes my consciousness.
A mind that is trying to survive a comprehension of loneliness.
The perception of losing you - Leaving me tracking thoughts and connecting dots in a confusion while being absent in an abyss
Thoughts creeping up, preventing me from taking a deep breath. I struggle to hold the tears longing to escape my eyelids, yet with no success.

... & I can sense a hand being wrapped around my heart when your stares reunite with mine and our eyes lock; ceasing time.
The world surrounding us perishes and dies out; leaving what's between us there to linger; sending a strong breeze my way, recalling me of your well implemented crime.
... & with each word uttered by you, the grip gets tighter and the sinking sensation knocks me down preceding an exhausting climb
Yet my feet fail to hold me up, and my education goes in vain as my lips fall short on mouthing words, turning me into a helpless mime

... & I'm drowning in seas of misery after years of thirsting for the ocean
Trapped below water level, feeling nausea caused by the universe's plan and it's unexpected motion
... & I can recognize the marks on my wrists after being tied to you with faultless devotion.

& I've grasped the concept that this existence will nevermore be the same...