have i made it through the winter?
it appears i have.
i don't think it was enough.

maybe, just maybe
if the birds come back and
build a nest for me
to look at everyday
that will be enough.

no.
i know what birds are.
they are distractions.
but i can be distracted for months.

birds are real and
birds are beautiful
but they are not my birds.

where are my birds?!
why can't i have my own birds?!

my tree.
my nest.
my birds.

i can build things.
i can make things.
i can even act like a crazy robin
  defending her children,
  flying and lunging at intruders.
i could.
i can even hop around
  with my mate and get worms
  and give them all to the babies.
i don't need anything more than worms.
or sticks. or mud.
or a couple ******* birds to hang around with.

it's fine.
i'm fine.
maybe if i can just watch the robins
that will be enough.