For as long as my memory goes
So does pain
I've become an addict
Pain.
   Love.
      Rumors.
         Me.
I can't just leave
I care too much to leave.
Your abusive.
You hit.
  You punch.
     You kick.
        You bite.
           You scream at me.
But its all in my head
The torture is real though.
                                       In my head.
Frustration in every sentence
Dripping with madness.
I lay down
                    You next to me.
My eyes are closed
                                   But my ears can hear
You **** a gun
                            I hear a shot.
                                                    All I feel is hot sticky liquid.
Its forming and spreading
     Then another shot.
          Everything is quiet.
      
                                   Our pain is over.