I hear people echo "I don't want to just survive I really want to live." But what if surviving is hard enough on it's own? What if it takes every molecule of my strength Just to get out of bed? What if my past, and traces of it Including those bits surrounded by ashes Infect every crevice of my being? How can I "Live life to the fullest" If my body and my mind do not want To let me live at all? Perhaps the worst part is I have no desire For any Prince Charming Or dark, mysterious man riding in on a stallion To come swoop in and save me from myself.