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Feb 2014
Day by day is all i have...
What i choose to do with my time outside of work, will definitely define how much better i will feel while im at work... Im considering this my last week.. as i am so eager to look for work elsewhere. Im making my peace as they would call it... I was plotting to quit at 8am this morning, yet im here now at 9am, working on projects i couldn't have thought about starting last week...
The positives.. im making money, money to pay for next months rent, my fpl and cell phone bill...
Im also allowing myself to feel comfortable in a work environment with other people...
emotionally things get ******* up when you live in your head...
its really a four hour morning and a four hour evening... you cant beat that...
There is plenty to do and search for.
Especially related to life..
Friends are calling it a 2 more week period before they witness normal lex again... lol.. im more just interested in starting things back up.. like cooking for myself this week actually sounds like a pretty awesome idea...
When i get home tonight im going to review what i have in my fridge...
and work on cooking something special for myself..
I took benedryl for the first time last night, it made me incredibly drowsy..
which is interesting to me because nothing else seemed to work..
and benedryl is for allergies... i remember my dad used to take a benedryl to relax himself, it actually doesnt even seem to me like a bad idea...
But yeah so the reality of it is, im here today because i need to be here... I know god has my back and im doing the best i can with what i have.. It was quite the challenge at first to accept everything for what it is... but i have to see that the rpocess is a great one... its better to move onto bigger and better things and keep yourself calm then to remove yourself from everything.. just makes life a lot harder.. i mean **** going to work this week puts me ina better place..especially financially...
Alexa Oliveira
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Alexa Oliveira  Finland
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