You snooze you lose... It was something like that they used to say... But I was always sleep deprived. Mentally blocked. Insomniac of some sort that would wake up 3 or 4 times in the night.... You don't learn anything unless you really pay attention. Awareness. Subconscious. Culture. It's remarkable. Most people do as others do. They don't recognize their individuality until their married with four children and a mortgage an then decide they wanted to be a pirate or a movie star when there life is half way over..... Not knocking those types of people. I thank god they eventually found their movement or had the courage to begin writing that novel that took them 10 years to think about. But being 21... I don't know who I am. I'm not too sure of what I'm looking to be either. Most of the time when people ask me what are you like or what do you like, I say... "I'm a great kid"... "And I see things differently"... That's about it. Life has many stepping stones for us... Sometimes we trip on similar stones without even noticing... But I do know that my life has always gone forward... And my downs don't go that down anymore... Well last week I was down.. But that's because I didn't what the hell was going on... But once you figure it out... You can utilize the tools you were blessed with emotionally, spiritually, and socially to then go ahead and review your issue.... The bible says the god an the devil will test us... I disagree however... I don't see it as a test really... I see it as an evolution.... You cannot grow without change.. I believe the test itself is to not emotionally charge your reactions to certain things and begin viewing them from a more logical and analytical perspective. ... But that is a test of the "flesh" ... Not of the almighty... The almighty is within us. He loves us. He adores our souls. He wants us to change, to grow... So we can be with him/her/universe..... I think the real question is... Are you willing to write about it?