The color of those sadistic green eyes still burns in the back of my mind. The soft texture of your cheeks molded into a frown still lingers on my fingertips. And I could never forget the smile that held steady as I fell for you. Do you remember when you told me that if you were stuck on Mount Everest and could only call one person, you'd call me? I remember. Because you said you'd guarentee that you wouldn't even be there without me. These memories pierce through the cast on my heart and I'm forced to face the fact that my heart isn't healing as fast as I thought it would. My tongue tastes of morphine from the many nights of trying to forget you. More so, trying to forget that you're doing okay without me. Do you ever reminisce or has the ink in your pen forgotten my name? A toxic love, part depression part anger, a poisonous concoction, somehow so addictive. You left traces of sorrow on my skin that sinks deep to my bones and flows through my bloodstream. A bitterness so strong it shakes every muscle in my body. I could never forget the way you controlled every fiber of my being. I remember the butterflies that once danced in my stomach, but they've been replaced by a tornado. An unforgiving whirlwind of reasons why I will never be good enough for you to show remorse. I will never be worth the apology that you could never admit I deserve. You taught me how to soar, gave me wings so I could fly. Feathers made of clouds until they dampened with the tears of a solitary night. You were never sorry. Indifferent to the scars on my flesh that screamed your name, caused by the pain you brought me. You can't erase the wounds by telling me to be sorry. Seeking repentance for the blood you sought after. You found delight in my pain, a serpent attracted to my weakness. I could never forget the smile that you held steady as I fell down Mount Everest.