my mind tells me,
'why even bother?
you know you're going to fail,
like you do at everything else.
you're pathetic.
it's not worth trying,
if the outcome will always be the same:
failure.
you'll never be that person,
who you so desperately want to be.
you are not good enough.
you are merely the product
of your own and others' dissapointment.'

but my heart tells me,
'you know what?
you should bother.
always try,
put your heart and soul into everything,
even if it seems like a hopeless cause.
you can prevail,
because you're not the person
in your thoughts or dreams-
the one who you desire to be,
no.
you are you,
a special person
who shouldn't strive to be
any more or less than what God has bestowed.
if you just keep moving,
having faith in yourself,
then you will be the product,
of your own satisfaction.'

who should I choose?