There was a time where I was desperate
Desperate to prove that I could be desired
That it was an option for me
I found someone to prove my thesis
And got blinded thinking it was all about the boy
Thinking that he was my savior
I got clingy
I didn't want to loose this anomaly
Because surely that was all it was,
an anomaly
So I clung to him not realizing
That feeling I wanted was a part of me
Not him
Me letting myself be seen instead of skulking in the shadows
Me grabbing my own power
He was nothing but the first
And oh, how he pales compared to the last