There are only two reasons for me to stay
To let life slowly **** me
Painfully
Instead of doing it now
All at once

The first,
For the people I love
That I need to hug one more time
Again and again

The second reason,
For the little girl who worked so hard just to survive
She survived for me
I can't ruin her plans
That wouldn't be fair

Oh wait
I think I have one more

Third,
One day, I'll finally get to hug her
One day

I actually have another, somehow
This one must be the last

Fourth,
I've never kissed someone
And no one has ever loved me yet

****, another one too

Fifth,
There might be a stranger
That'll read my poems and feel less alone

Sixth,
I've been banned from it

Seventh,
I would be killing the version of me that is a grandparent with grandchildren on her lap
Before she even breathed

And this list is losing my point
So just one last one this time

Eighth,
Because this list kept going on