The pain is absolutely unbearable
Never enough to smoke, the bowl will never be filled
I drink a lot more now
Hoping to wash myself
out of the bottom of the lowest canyon of my life
Afraid
Angry
So Angry
But at who?
Bear my soul in a futile yet desperate attempt to reach her humanity
I was unwise
She made me eat my own heart while she
and the man she loves took joy in toying with me
Pulling out the last strings of faith and self worth
I'm ashamed to admit that I can't stop crying
during the smallest hours of the night
She did this bereft of any anger or hate towards me
You have to be human to be able to feel those emotions