Underlying, that’s what they call it
The things you cannot see
The signs you do not notice

That is how all my problems feel
Underlying
They’re present but invisible
I can see them, and only I can feel them

So I use music
To scream for me
To cry for me

Because how can I react
On something I cannot truly see
On something I do not understand

Underlying, yet unknown
There is something wrong
Still I’ll never truly know what it is

I don’t want to be diagnosed
But I do
Because there is something wrong
And I long to figure out what

To decipher all of it completely
For it to add up and make sense

Because what’s taunting me
Has been here forever

I want it out.