Im so Alone.. ..... .on my own . Im bent....Iam spent..... darkness my only friend. Another secret we will share. Inot sure when and I dont know where. But I dont care. Im glad Im there. It Whispers Images that come in waves... Each appearing in it own unique way. In a vibrant white and yellow glow.. A silhouette of a man... I do not know. The outline of a very high bridge.... That spans across a narrow ridge. Letters, numbers a bass guitar.... A lined highway road that goes straight ,very far.
Each image manifests,and dissipates... into the pitch black, empty space. Illuminated in electric light. Shifting shape before my eyes. They see all ,theyre opened wide. What happened to gravity.?Why do they glide?
What I thought was a loud buzzing hum... Accompanied by the pound of a drum. Is the silence that echos in my head. It courses my veins...Like the blood I have bled. Only it holds me here instead,as if im incased in a ton of lead To my bed and pillow held under this weight. Only I could be fragile glass about to break Until I reminded myself that what I feel is fake. Then my mind is pulled to a quiet hush. Where my head sinks down in inviting plush
Suddenly I feel as if I'm floating in time..... Forward yet I'm moving into mine. Theses images -that continue to fade in.... Then changing as it fades right back out again. While others make there way with a pop That flashes down low and shifts up to the top.... And lingers for a moment til its shape forms another to take its place. What omce vague I come to realize that what actually fades in and out is I. In and out but forward into myself .I wonder how thought it was anything else. Am I in flight or am I floating ...into the images I go through.? Should I question if what I see if false or true? I won't look down for fear the view. It might will let me drop and'.I dont know if I want to start.
As I go forward into my self I move on- In this current Im carried it pulls me along . Through a timeless space of nowhere. Every thing is as meaningful as it is pointless there. I m drifting.... I drift in a slow steady pace. Not just watching .....but Ive become part of the space Not only within.... but all over the place.
Interacting with each scene - that I see - as I glide. Looking from inside .....but also within. When what I watch ends....another begins.
As if it is the most normal thing in my whole life What seems strangely familiar, Is too vague to realize. While It escapes all logic Its so incredibly wise. I even ask myself not to believe my eyes. But Im true to myself I tell no lies.?..Not this time.... Not to me myself and I. I f there were times , surely, this is not one. I see myself doing things I've done And doing these things.... things I'd never do. Yet Im continueing to do them all the way through. And Im feeling the same emotions I see me haveing too. They come and go as quickly as what surrounds me. Whatevers around me.. . Laughter, surprise,embarrassment they go on and on.... Anger, contentment.....but I feel mostly mostly calm. In a hum of energy that sometimes snaps and sparks. But It continues in motion even when I dont want it. In a current pulled away but within it ....Im on it.
In a flash I stop. It lets me drop... With that halt - I m in a fall . Gravity ****** me heavily away. It pulls my body and stretches my face..... It tosses my tummy like a carnival ride. And me, with this awful fear of heights... Thats when I remember- I know how to fly. I dont end in a crash....I soar to the skies.... Im an expert at this I barely have to try.
I feel so safe, so free from harm.Oh great ,Whats the noise coming out of my arm? I this sound ,'What is it ? Why...thats my alarm!!! Eyes open wide.What a ride! MEDITATION Astro glide.