we wake up and absorb it, tightly write dry plans, best laid to go awry. i exhaust all my options now, turn off the curling iron, blow out the last candle, tie up loose ends, mark my calendar. transit apps quantify me home, but i still overthink breathing, always late, or too early, thereβs no timer for this life, no remorse for the lists weβve made, or the poorly scheduled TTC train. control is a bottomless pit, and i drink every last drop, knowing you could wake up tomorrow and feel differently, and i guess so could i - so letβs try, with whatever control we have left.