i long for what we had,
no one will ever see me
as clearly as you did.

i wish we let it end
as peacefully
as it began,
so when we look back
at the beginning,
it isn’t so bitter.

for a time,
it was everything.

i wish i could reflect
upon our time,
without having to pretend
i wish it never was,
when deeply,
i wish it still to be.