I hate every moment of silence I've had to take for you
I hate every bowl of grapes paired with a slice of melon
I hate all of those stupid gravel trails, especially when they're damp
I hate that you loved me
I hate wearing that beautiful black dress with the beads
I hate that stray cat with its heart-shaped nose
I hate calls from anyone else at night
I hate running when you're not there to tease me
I hate crying on my good days
I hate that you were the best love I've ever known
I hate how you wheezed when you laughed
I hate your bad posture
I hate every email I get
I hate that you didn't say goodbye
I hate all the sympathy
I hate the heaps of food that I can't eat
I hate that you held my hand that night
I hate the way you'd sing to me
I hate how well you knew me
I hate the hymns I mumbled at your funeral
I hate that you left me
I hate that you were drowning
I hate that you aren't next to me right now
I wish you were still around.