I got caught up in the streets.
I got greedy.
Started doing wrong and evil.
I love all my ******.
Want to hug my ******, they don’t understand the meaning.
I was living fast, going through the motions;
Never played wide receiver.
I’d go back in time if I could, rewind for good and stop the grieving.
Thinking suicide but I’m strong I know my two favorite people need me.
Plus I got a mom, dad, and two sisters.
I hold my pain like a secret.
I had to realize that the universe was trying to tell me what I needed.
I be alone a lot.
Armani caught me talking to demons.
I lost Gage.
I lost Karon.
I lost Mario and Rod.

I lost myself.
Almost lost my life right before I got locked up.

I had a talk with the reaper.
He’s thinking about killing me next.
I said you’re real for sure.
But I’m already killing myself.

I be talking to God.
But I still did the work of the devil.
Now I’m trying to get my life together.
Everyday now is stormy weather.

I’m not suppose to question God;
Hope you listen God, what’s it take to get healthy?
I walk around with fire, I can’t trust nobody.
Paranoid, it’s sad I can’t help it.

Granddaddy died in the house after school.
After that I took the room.
I was waking up feeling paralyzed drowning in my own tears.

And I’m sorry that I never listened.
But that don’t mean I need hell.
I can’t really talk to my daddy, since he became twelve.
I talk to God daily so I know he hears me, but I don’t never find answers.

I had a circle full of fake friends.
They wasn’t even gang or scammers.
I was trying to feed my family.
But I still wasn’t trying to do better.

You was suppose to be my partner.
Got hooked on drugs and moved jealous.
We was suppose to eat together and have the team and family rocking name brand and better.

I feel my words be to simple.
But they say I’m complex.
I’m just misunderstood.
Need balance and I’m taking the steps.

Im trying to do better.
Trying to stack my cheddar.
I wanted us all to eat together.
Trying to change the weather.
Plain old sweater, use to wear it for whatever.

I’m trying to keep my head up everyday.
Deep down inside I’m going Kanye crazy.
Said I need therapy and people scared of me.
Quiet, but I got a whole lot to say.