i had an epiphany
under the overpass
cognitive dissonance
finally cracked
like a raw egg
and i understand.

i've been racking
my brain for months
hours spent staring at the wall
reviewing 10 years
trying to figure out
what i've ever done to you
to make you
want to  \d e s t r o y\  me

now i understand,
your highness
i've been clinging to the
assumption that
you are a decent man!
my god!
what a ******* idiot i am!
the answer is so simple
when  /perspective/  shifts

even after all
the
vile
|unforgivable|
words
your hurled at me
it didn't sink in...
after year upon year
of selfish behavior
i still
sit here like a fool
wondering why you are
only thinking about yourself
and don't give a **** about me

apparently you don't reward
your faithful servants.

now i understand,
your highness
everyone just seems
to adore you
their eyes are upon you
because they don't know you
you shall have
every ******* new
shiny toy you want

but under the overpass
i understood
i know how much woman
was behind the man
|apparently there is already a new woman|
so i ask

where is the man?

how long will it take
for the man
to collapse atop
his poorly built costume
stumbling about on stilts?

this woman is just
                                   pure ***
|a fine ***|
   ******* woman

so **** this ****
**** your selfish ******* attitude
your kingly pretend
graciousness
pennies for my service

the overpass granted clarity
                                       and i will take it
you have egg on your face, *****!                  
                 and i am *brilliant