I wish I could’ve said thank you again.
I wish that I could’ve held your body for a little longer
Held your hand a little stronger
So that I could remember the curves and crevices on your palm
I wish my words could’ve extinguished the fire that surrounded you
I wish I could’ve ****** the harmful air out of the room that engulfed your lungs
I wish I could’ve changed the thermometer for our world and made it warmer
So you wouldn’t have been in the house in the first place
I wish I would’ve made a PowerPoint of all the ways you made me cherish life more
I wish I could’ve said goodbye
I wish I would’ve made more conversation and made fewer abbreviations because now I feel I was shortening our time together
I wish I would’ve danced to your mumbled words that you sang in the pews at church
I wish I could’ve seen you more
I wish I could’ve made you happy,
And had fought through the excuses when I said I couldn’t
You were the one that cared
And you stuck by everyone’s side until they were better
I wish I had done the same for you

It’s hard to realize the sacrifices done for us
But we should accept it,
Before it’s too late.
On January 30th I lost someone I didn’t expect to lose
I wish I hadn’t lost him
He was too young
And the life ahead of him was full
It is said that before you pass there are 7 minutes of brain activity left
And you go through the moments in your life
I hope I was in one of those clips
I shouldn't have lost you,
But I did
And I miss you so much
And I would pray that it was all fake news and you would come back
But I know you can’t
So thank you for the visit as an angel
I couldn’t say goodbye to you
But sometime in the future, I will say hello once again.