i used to cut because i was angry at myself and i was angry at my parents and my friends who honestly weren't good at their "job" of being said friends and everything else in the world that didn't benefit me.
i hated myself and i still do but maybe less than i did then because i'm not as angry at myself as i used to be and the last time i cut was in may and those "friends" don't talk to me anymore but my parents still make me absolutely livid sometimes
but what can you expect? the world makes everyone mad sometimes and i really wanted to treat it better than it treats me "**** 'em with kindness!" like dad always says but it's kind of hard to do. it's like the one kid who picked on you and called you fat when you were in kindergarten but when you told the teacher they cry and say that you were mean to them first except the world can't cry and the world can't talk and i guess the teacher is the sun, and if you think of it that way, the sun is going to blow up in a few billion years and then the earth will be dead and you will be dead before that, so i guess that it's better to be optimistic even when you're angry because when you're angry and upset at yourself or your friends or parents then you get hurt and your parents get hurt and your friends get hurt as well