I want to die and yet I don't
I really really don't wish to be dead
But the thoughts in my head have other plans

I can't stay here
Everything feels bad
Wrong, I can't explain it

My thoughts don't make sense anymore
The once coherent voice
Is drunk on pain and hurt and sorrow

So dim and dull it can barely be heard screaming
Far away in the distance now
My thoughts used to make sense once

No one can reach me now.
I'm somewhere far away now, unseen.
I'm gone, the old me long forgotten,
Only to be replaced by this monster drenched
In sadness and pain and tears

How can it be
So slowly fading away
It hurts so much it almost feels like

nothing at all