Euthanasia is legal
now in Spain he told me
and he sounded so relieved and free
  as if he
had got a present
or an invitation to a special event
it has wrapped itself around my heart like a clasp
and I don't know how to grasp
or comprehend
or try at least to understand
this unspeakably great longing for death
and nothing I say or do will change that desire to die
and the worst thing is
I truly understand why