it scares me how hungry my heart is how it needs and feels so much i'm scared of how it rages on suddenly and relentlessly and most of the time i don't know how to calm it, i don't know the right words to say to remind it that what it wants isn't necessarily the right thing
how it just breaks it breaks so much, i think it breaks everyday, and it breaks for the littlest of things the things that shouldn't matter but my heart swims in pain anyway
i'm scared of how much it can feel, doubling the intensity of everything both a curse, and a blessing
joy and pain are real and they can both hurt and feel good at the same time
I know this because i know you and you make me feel them all the time
i'm scared of my own heart because i know what it wants
it beats your name like a morse code day in and day out, and that's all it ever does ever since you've been gone
i'm scared of my heart, of how much it loves something that's gone i'm scared of how much it loves you.