you took me to the beach,
even though I told you
a thousand times that
I didn't like the sand.



we walked together
along the shoreline

and it was there
that you told me
that you were toxic.

you told me that
you would hurt me
somehow in the end
no matter what

because that's what
you always do.



I should've ran
but instead I did what
you always did to me,

and I ignored everything
that you told me.



I should have listened
when you warned me
but instead,

I tuned you out
and listened to the
seagulls and the waves.



you told me that
you were dangerous

but instead of running,
I took your hand

and I told you how
much I loved you

and I clung to you so that
the ocean wouldn't
sweep me away.


I should've listened.
I let myself drown.