Poisons and potions Past years of emotions Regretting my actions Forgetting my passions Feelings can't be felt, I've drowned them and numbed them out I'm insecure and full of doubt Any chance of hope, I snuffed it out Replaced it with fear and impending doom Get out of my way please give me some room All alone, isolation is home Pushed everyone away so I can suffer alone Look in the mirror, see a stranger I fear No longer trust anyone, death is near Can't handle feeling, won't allow it Redirect my thoughts, self destructions my power Silence is deafening, hour by hour Forget I exist, I won't be here tomorrow No hope, just dope, is how I cope, I'm a coward Self mutilation, my ****** creation The more I bleed, closer to freed Please God forgive me, my souls in need.