I feel it inside
it aches as i try so desperately to grasp
onto another thought that could make this
terrible feeling
vanish
people say we want what we can't have
but what happens when you crave this
when you want every curve from his persuasive smile
or every feeling you get when his delicate hands fill the voids in your body
that you thought never
existed
what do you do then
when his words say that he doesn't want a relationship
but his actions show that he does
i'm left in a state of confusion
my thoughts constantly clouding up my naive mind and soul
do i stay
do i let my fantasies with him overlap reality
or do i let somebody go
who i never thought could make me feel so
special and whole
i don't know anymore.

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