I opened up my journal
And at the top I wrote “What I’m Feeling Right Now”
Lost
Because I don’t know what choice to make
I’m worried I’ll do something I hate
Scared
For the world I live in to change
That my children will grow up in a place
Where they and their freedoms aren’t safe
Restless
Because I drank 2 cups of coffee with dinner
And now the chances of me sleeping tonight are wearing much thinner
Longing
To talk to them
To that person who claimed they were my friend
But I haven’t heard from since I don’t know when
Lonely
Because I moved away
From all the things I knew and loved
Sad
Because of everything going on in the world right now
Unsure, overwhelmed, anxious, and unloved
I don’t know what’s wrong with me
My life is pretty great
I’m in one of those slumps
Where nothing feels ok
I miss them, I miss him, I miss being a kid
I wish things made sense again
I wish these weren’t the feelings I was feeling right now
But I can’t change that, now can I?