To the outside world,
it's only getting up in the morning once the alarm roars to life;

But to me,
it's a battle within on whether it's still worth getting up today.

To the outside world,
it's only reading mundane words on the screen and respond to some;

But to me,
it's trying to stop my fingers and arms from trembling as I scroll through words I can't process.

To the outside world,
it's simply going through the goals of the day.

But to me,
it's desperately holding myself to prevent or at least fight through another breakdown.