It's been four months since we broke up, In those four months i've been praying, Praying that we get back together but You don't want that you say anything but, Yet ask to see me quite often , It's been 10 months since I shared the secret, The secret of my body with you My virginity, It's been four months since you dumped me, Yet how is it that my heart still aches? Yet how is it that I can't seem to move on? Yet how is it that I still can't understand why, Why it was so easy for you to just walk away? Why you don't want me back? Why you moved on ? Why God allowed you to come into my life? Why He did it in spite of knowing you'd hurt me? Why i'm still in so much pain all the time? Why I can't stop: Thinking about you Thinking about who you are with Thinking about how life is for you Thinking if your thinking of getting back with me Thinking if only I could see how your mind works Thinking if only I had the power of time for sure i'd Go back and do so many things right : One of those things would be not letting you be mine Were you really mine though?