I have never kept count of the times we have argued
Had a disagreement
Raised our voices or said something without thinking
I don't bother wasting time in settling the score
But for the first time in a long time
I am wishing that you feel what I am feeling right now
Hurt
Sad
Uncertain
Confused
I want you to feel every ounce of it
I want all the feelings to consume you
Hit you in waves
Watch your eyes well up with tears
Watch your face crumble
Your shoulders shake with grief
Your tall form shrinking
Watch you melt into the cold hard floor
Alone
In the dark
with no one to hear you
and even worse
understand you