i stood besides the grass on an empty crossroad the ants feed on the remnants of an empty can
i know i was quitting but not immediately if i did that i'd get mad i was more myself with a cigarette
the lighter clicks for my cherry scented stick of white i'd take two per two days three if i'm extra pathetic i meander through my thoughts while i stand like running through a road without lifting your feet the little details hurtle around
on how blue the grass is on how tall the sky grew compared to the last time i was there on how organized the ants go about compared to the giant beside them the smoke was whiter than the clouds that covered a pleasant day
i stood like i was waiting not for anything or anyone but waiting maybe for the rain or a car or that high i paid for the loser smoked because his life was garbage laying on the floor to be feasted by insects i feel my life was not right only because i knew it felt wrong i must have tasted it before to know the difference
was it the times that school ended was it the weekends between work or that afternoon with a girl or the **** we had after was it the memory of a feeling who's images were forgotten but lingers nonetheless was it from a child, or a lover, or a drunk chainsmoker was it even real or true
the stick was left to its dead inch the wait was over and i parted from the ants