They say you lose more then just the person.
At first it’s anger,then hurt then guilt but gradually you fall through
You don’t think about them,you barely remember how they smile your moving on
Until one day it starts
It starts of small, you pick up a tissue and it’s his scent
You freeze as the cold air passes through
Your heart stops
Clenches
All it brings is hurt
You think of all the things you don’t do
Unintentionally
Or intentionally
You don’t listen to hey there Delilah
It’s your song
You don’t chew gum
No one carries it for you anymore
You no longer sit on the left side of the bus
Because the hope of seeing you on the right is heartbreaking
You no longer have caramel frappes
Or sit on random stairs to chat
You no longer walk in the snow
It was the first time you were told you were loved
You no longer hold hands
Or throw your arms around someone
You no longer wear frill socks
There’s no one there to pull them up
You don’t like being called meri jaan
That was the first word he learnt in your language
You wait and wait just to see him once more
The small eyes, half grin smile
Beaming at you
Knowing that you made him feel that
Over the years you will move on
As time passes
Memories fade
You’ll keep him close
The hurt will dull
But he won’t stop coming
Waltzing in
And just smiling
Leaving you heartbroken
In all those moments