I remember lying on my bed late at night The images of that.. survey tattooed behind my eyelids
I remember having to check off the boxes that apply But how can you apply a label to the deep down feeling of being bullied How can you label the sleepless nights and tempest-tossed days, Of lying in bed wondering when the world will change
When you want to make a difference But it’s hard Because people won't listen
When innocence is dressed as protection The lines get fuzzy Because I can remember times when my age cost me my innocence And my innocence cost me my age
"The resources that we provide The time that has been generously set aside You need to pick a side" But there are too many unanswered questions about this list of what feels like right and wrong answers
But it's okay, because there’s an “all of the above" option
The messages students are sending out are being ignored We talk to the janitor, instead of the head of the school board When the teacher who said they'd to help you decides to retire We are tired
This form is supposed to help us But it has formed into an endless hole of anger and confusion We are tired of being told that we are safe when our safety seems to be disguised as a Google questionnaire.
So I lay on my bed for a little while longer And thought of this poem To all the girls and the boys And everyone in between Who’s ever struggled with self-worth And even self-esteem We are in this together We can work to be better So we won’t have to lay in bed, wondering when the questions won’t make us question our inherent value
Because we are worth something Something more than what we know More than hair, makeup, piercings and clothes This is some progress, a movement, a fight that can grow And hopefully one day... our identities can show And all of this can start by hanging up a rainbow :)
I performed this slam poem at a Day Of Silence event held by my school. The week before, I had been asked to complete a survey, that would "anonymously inform faculty about LGBTQ discrimination in the school system"