something hangs
in the air
like smoke
clings to our clothes
stings in my nose
but thats just how it goes
the lump in my throat
too large to be swallowed
causes me to choke
on the words i've waited to say
was finally ready to be honest today
let you see all of the pain
and stop putting on a brave face
but in the moment my resolves fades
all my vulnerability melts away
my heart cannot afford to break
can not let my strength budge
cannot value any trust
can not ever fall in love
isolation needs to be enough
when you're this afraid to be touched
this regretful of things you've done