I thought I was fine. I thought I became numb after the last time I was broken. Why does it hurt multiple times harder this time? Why is this loneliness so exclusive that nobody else knows my pain? I am falling deeper and deeper and nobody even senses my absence. Why could nobody hear me scream? Where are all the heads that I lent my shoulder now that I need some shoulder to bury my tears? Why couldn't I find comfort in any of the eyes around me? Why do I feel left out from the whole universe? Why couldn't my heart take the fact that nobody cares enough to pull me out? Where did it all go wrong? Why am I not enough for myself? Why am I not enough to pick myself up this time? Why do I keep looking for hope in places that I could never get hope? Why is it so hard this time? Just why?