See I wanted to check in with a smile or a grin
Show you some scale of grandeur or win
But when your smiles wafer  thin and you can see them looking in
Head hung low and you can't meet there eyes, raise your chin ....

See I wanted to ask
Are you okay?
How is your day?
But love is a currency I am to broke to pay

Just one more hurdle I've got to get through and I'll get back to you
Over this one under that one two steps forward one step back, hey look another panic attack...
A sign of reprieve puts my mind at ease
Of course but a tease
One breath and I'm back
Grief stricken heart attack

See I wanted to smile
Run for a mile
Or just sit and enjoy for awhile
With you and me
Good company
So once again I'll plea
no more hurdles please let me be
I have friends, a family to raise and people who need me...
Alas to no avail
The next trauma makes the last seem pale
And when I go to stand this time I know I may fail

See what I wanted was never on the cards
Life is one big hardship
Not some tale of fantasy sung by thy bard
So ignore my silence for words right now are just to hard...