I'm in pain everyday,
He says I'm always negative
But I can't get these feelings to go away
I've never been taught proper etiquette
The hopelessness has been here to stay
My god I don't even know what I'm doing here
I walk around so clueless thinking things will change but it always stays the same
He says it's my attitude but it's the only one I've ever known
It's the only thing I've ever been shown
I just bury the pain till I explode
I guess it's better then mutilation
I should know
The contemplation, to end my destination the fixation on the pain that always goes away
In the end it's all I've ever known
I get mad and sad I'm never glad I have real issues
I'm always crying I'm starting to run out of tissues
Does anyone care maybe they do maybe they don't
Maybe I can maybe I won't
This endless spiral this endless cycle
Who am I kidding I can't be a idol I give up before I start
I take almost everything to heart
I don't know how to change I guess I'm the true definition of insane
Maybe it's all in my brain
Something we don't condone
But I guess it's all I've ever known.