pent up emotions boil to the opening
i'm helpless to stop it
i'm afraid to cry
what if it never ends
what if i never stop
i miss my mom so god awful much
i am afraid to tell people and show it
i fear being shun
whats wrong with you?
it's been two years, pull yourself together
get over it
my heart hurts
i struggle to put my emotions in words
having to feel and write in secret
i fear people's reaction
they always say it will work out alright
what great nonsense
i want mum to hold me tight

my favorite lie: i got your back

this is pent up loss, grieve mixed with betrayal
boiled with anger and pain
i don't know who i am anymore
i can't even master up a smile, a fake smile
avoid people all together