i wanna be in love
but it feels like a dream
too far away
for me to reach
too unrealistic
to achieve
but every night
when i fall asleep
i meet someone
and life seems
okay for now
when he loves me

then i wake up
and i forget the face
live through
some lonely days
all i want is
the tiniest taste
the fantasies
fade
ecstasy
till they're stolen away
i want to feel like this
when i'm awake