x Do you remember the last time you said the words "I Love you" ?
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I don't remember
I don't remember the last time that I said "I Love you"
I don't remember when I said it or to whom or why
And now I can't escape this rotting feeling that this isn't a memory we should ever out-grow That this isn't a memory we should ever out-live That this isn't a memory we should ever get too far away from Now that I realize it's gone I feel adrift and lost without it like a greenhorn just realizing he's lost sight of shore for the first time
The sudden realization that I couldn't remember that I've lost this memory that it must've been so long since I last said it to anyone for any reason that I've lost it completely sits so alien and unreal in me That I could've ever lost something so important something that has always just been there before something that should just be a backdrop to the rest of my life now gone and I didn't even notice it didn't miss it at all until now It's as if I suddenly realized one wall of my house was missing exposing us letting in the whether and I can't even remember when it happened
And this is all only preamble just the lead-in to the real question Why? Why can't I remember? Why have I forgotten? Why has it been so long since I last said it? Why haven't I said it? Why did I ever stop?
What am I waiting for?
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